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Thursday, February 10, 2011

28 weeks, Names and Choice

I really have to pinch myself that i'm 28 weeks pregnant! Only 12 weeks (3 months) to go until i'm a mom. Things are going really well I have no signs of an early labor which is good. I fell HUGE and i'm wearing all maturnity clothes now. I'm still at school, which sucks. I'm so tired all the time and falling behind already. I really don't want to drop out and have been trying so hard to stay focused and work hard but it's juts not happening. I have slipped from an average B+ to a C in a matter of months and thats without a baby :/ My mom isn't to impressed to say the least she's starting to doubt that i'll garduate high school. I have been trying so hard but as soon as I get home from school I sleep. I guess all those sleepless nights at the start of my pregnancy are coming back to bite me. I have made my choice and i'm going to keep my baby. I spoke on the phone to my adoption consellor for hours 2 weeks ago and the next day my mom and I went in to see her. She told me that having these second thoughts could cause me to make a huge mistake and end up regreting it. It wasn't too late to call it off and everyone would understand. So I spent another night just working it all over in my head and came to my choice to be a mom. I have alot of support and no it won't be the perfect or most ideal situation but my daugther is going to be loved and taken care of no matter what. I also found out at my 28 week appointment that I am in fact having a GIRL XD I think thats the first time I have actually felt a buzz of excitiment during the pregnancy. I still doubt myself alot, I wonder how this big mess is going to work out. 6 months ago I was your typical high school junior, not look at the mess i'm in! I have narrowed down the names and she's either going to be named Tasmyn Marie or Kennedy Grace Stevens. Thats about all really the last few months have just been me trying to make a choice. I feel a whole lot better now I have made one, but i'm still concerned with whether it was the right one :/

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