Kasarna Phoenix Stevens
May 5th 2011 @ 8.12am
9lb 2oz, 21 inches
Since then I can't say how much life has changed. Being a mommy is amazingly hard, it challenges everything you know about yourself, your instincts and no longer just looking out for yourself but another innocent human being who depends on you for everything. I smile whenever I see her face in the morning, she's the light of my life. Things have been hard though, I suffered from mild Post Natal Depression about a month after having her. I struggled to get into the mind set of being a mother, I felt like when she cried I was just doing something wrong, that I wasn't being a good mom to her. I would get fed up and upset and then she could tell I wasn't myself and cry some more. I thankfully I had great support from my mum and two sisters. They helped take care of Kasarna when I just couldn't do it anymore. Some days are still better than others but i'm understanding my baby girl so much more, knowing what her cries mean and learning to have patience and it's not just because i'm young, it happens to everyone. She's completely healthy and growing perfectly, she just had her 3 months check up and is now 15lbs 8oz and 24 1/4 inches <3 She's starting to hold her head up and is smiling all the time XD I feel like I have made the right choice and I don't have any regrets except her father isn't here to share this wonderful gift with me. I have a few other little updates to do, and i'll do it over the next few days.
